Its about 2:14 am...on Friday night, or shall I say Saturday morning. And why am I not asleep? Because I am up spilling my story to Courtney, and it has never felt better to talk to her. I miss our late night talks in her room, or staying up all night crying in my room while we talk about losing loved ones, etc instead of going out like we had planned. Why don't we talk more? Why did it take so long to get back in touch with her after I came to MU? Maybe because I knew it was going to be hard to adjust to the new school, and that lingering on to my old school would only hold me down. I knwe that it would be hard knowing that her and Jen would be going on with their lives, not that I expected them not to, it would hurt being on the outside. But nontheless, I miss her so much. I have told her things tonight that I haven't told anyone but my mom. Things I will never tell anyone else. I have some awesome friends here, but she understands me unlike anyone else here.